what is the true meaning of frenz?

i think that meaning of bestfrenz should be able to share a lot of things.
bt I...
totally ntg to share what my minds thinking to my frenz...
is it my problem?
i think so...
do not trust my frenz?
afraid them knw what im thinking?
fear of losing?

i hv lost 2 bestfrenz...
so, i vowed that would nt be repeated again.

now i no dare admit that she was my b.frenz.
if i am admitted.....
im afraid i will lost again.
we swear b4 rite..
we will zip our mouth...oh yeah babe..

some of my frenz told me y dun wan share my feeling wit them...
frenz,
im very very willing you to share ur thoughts wit me.
i really willing...anything u wanna share with me...
I?
sorry, i tried to share with u all...
bt, i cant speak it out...
not u all problem,
is mine...
sometimes,
im feeling stress,
i wanna shout,
bt,
im depressed...
i wan to tell u that,
bt u're trouble with other things...

i was thinking, thinking and thinking...
finally i knew it...
im lazy to speaking...

i hv a old-fren,
she said that how can u hv so many frens in ur-life...
i jz told her, i dun think so...
i think she tot me show off...lolx...
do u knw that what is the most important in ur frenz group?
that is topic ah kawan...
no topic how to chitchat man...
so thats y i got different gang different group...

in my secondary scul life,
jz like that,
got crazy things and some sad things..wuhhh...
i dun wan face that...sakit hati...
college?
i met crazy classmates...
ya~
that is what i want...
actually, i very scared who beremosi...
i duno how to handle...
lolx...
u knw i knw he knw lolx...
hahaha...
okayy~~kawan...
now,
i starting to recall...
and starting to collect new memorise...
huh,
no childish at all...
cause im 20yrs-old..[ jz say say ]
damn pitiful...

next time write bahasa melayu...
and cantonese...
wuakakakakaka.....